Time after time

So today I noticed proof of my "letting go" of a lot of my anger and was I ever grateful. I even checked my blood pressure and it's down about 10 points from my norm!

I did not let someone get to me at all. I'm still disappointed, even a bit sad but I did not get angry. I also realized that there are many people surrounding this person that are blind or in total denial about the situation. I am not going to apathetic about it but I'm not going to get myself all worked up about it either.

Seriously, I know something has to happen - things have to change. I just realized there is a time and a place for it. I just need to be patient and do my thing.

It feels good to not get all worked up over it. I am definitely in a better place today than I was a week ago. :)

Oh, and Mark took me to the restaurant he proposed to me for our anniversary last night. I am never disappointed in their food! We enjoyed a great bottle of Chianti (I need to buy it again!) and the best 4 course meal!

Seriously, I had forgotten how good wine is. I used to sell it, be a buyer, and still have quite a bit of knowledge and it came in handy last night. I know that wine is quite good for you in moderation. I slept better than I have in months!

Okay, off to an insane and busy weekend of stuff!

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