Luck Be A Lady

Well, I've thought about writing many times and just couldn't find the inspiration. I hate it when that happens. I've been happy writing short little spurts of wisdom on FB or Twitter but if it was more than 150 characters I just didn't have the energy. Oh well.... I know it's just a phase! It's been a busy summer. I just wrapped up working at Camp CSTOCK teaching music/drama to kids. It was a BLAST and I loved every moment of it. My niece flew up from Cali and spent 10 days with us. We had fun being tourists and showing her around. We took trips to the ocean, to Mt. Rainier and to DT Seattle (mostly shops and the market) in three days! I was exhausted to say the least. Summer here has been spectacular and I've loved the sunshine so much. My garden has been doing well and most of the sick plants I had from last winter thrived. I lost my bay laurel plus my kale for some crazy reason so I will need to replace them but all the rest of the veggies and herb...

I am kind of down. It's been tough enough this past year just getting an interview for a job, let alone a second/final one only to be rejected as number 2. I am going to be fine I know but I just want to be the one that is in control and be able to say yes or no. I know that God is steering me in the right direction but it's tough facing another rejection. I keep looking for the silver lining and while I know that there IS a job out there for me I am really, really bummed. What the heck will it take to get a good job again? I feel like I am a fairly talented and resourceful person but it's obvious that I am not finding the right work or employer. It's frustrating to say the least. I should be grateful for everything I have right here and right now. I am feeling sorry for myself and I don't like it when I do that. I just want to crawl into bed and hide but I have to get back to finding a job.  Time to be a grown up..... Sigh......

Gads.... I looked back at the date of my last blog and it's been 14 months. My, my.... time flies. Life has indeed changed enormously in 14 months. I quit my old job. I got engaged on the last day of employment with Mills. I started a new job in the arts. I continued to have a long term house guest during this time. Mark bought me a beautiful ring which I still love for its careful design/beauty/thoughtfulness. I struggled with things at work and couldn't put my finger on what or why since it was what I wanted for so long. The holidays came and went.... it was such a joy to buy gifts, wrap them cleverly, make the holiday turkeys, etc. I directed a wonderful Sinatra holiday show in the midst of it. While I pretty much just had to tell people where to stand and help with design while my set designer, music director and choreographer did the hard stuff I still felt enormous pride for the outcome. It was beautiful. I spent the beginning of 2010 struggling to find music directors...