Luck Be A Lady

So today I noticed proof of my "letting go" of a lot of my anger and was I ever grateful. I even checked my blood pressure and it's down about 10 points from my norm! I did not let someone get to me at all. I'm still disappointed, even a bit sad but I did not get angry. I also realized that there are many people surrounding this person that are blind or in total denial about the situation. I am not going to apathetic about it but I'm not going to get myself all worked up about it either. Seriously, I know something has to happen - things have to change. I just realized there is a time and a place for it. I just need to be patient and do my thing. It feels good to not get all worked up over it. I am definitely in a better place today than I was a week ago. :) Oh, and Mark took me to the restaurant he proposed to me for our anniversary last night. I am never disappointed in their food! We enjoyed a great bottle of Chianti (I need to buy it again!) and the be...

My hubby & our 3 pups! To my dearest husband! Time flies when you're having fun!

I love reading Scripture.  Some of my friends may or may not be religious so forgive me if this post is a bit out of your comfort zone. Per my previous post, I've been kind of stewing over something for quite some time and really letting it get to me. I hate feeling like I've lost control over my own life but that's what happens when you let someone make you feel bad or weak or stupid. It's a tough thing, really. We're only human, right? We let other people's behaviors affect us because of it. We get grumpy because someone else is. We get happy when someone around us is happy. It's a contagious thing, emotions.  I am nearing a really big milestone and I find myself shocked that I'm still going over these kinds of things. I thought I would be really smart by now and not worrying over these things. Well, I do. I care what people think of me. I let people take the power. I get grouchy. I lose my temper. I worry. I let my blood pressure skyrocket! So o...

I have been really pissed off about something lately. I just want to let it go and stop carrying this anger. I know that God is there for me and I just need to give it to him. And yet I feel very alone in this. I feel like nothing is working or going my way in this situation. I have prayed about it but I'm still angry. I can't seem to use any of the visualization tricks I've been taught. I am going to try to have a serious prayer session and a long conversation with my God. I hope I can rid myself of this poison.

I've been thinking a lot about a particular subject lately. I have been trying to tactfully call people out when they do something wrong. Typically, I hate confrontation but I've been seeing a person getting away with awful behavior. I have said what needed to be said but I knew ultimately it would change nothing. When someone feels entitled, they continue to misbehave and do whatever they want. There is no consequence other than reward so nothing changes. I'm tired of it. So do I give up and walk away? Or do I continue the good fight? I want to do the right thing. I've prayed about it - and one of my biggest faults is that I'm not patient. I wonder......I guess I'll keep thinking about for a while longer.

I reached my saturation point with something/someone. Hate to be cryptic since this is where I dump all my innermost thoughts but I feel it best to just say I finally let something go that I'd been holding onto for a long time. I'm not giving up but I certainly am going to stop wasting my time and energy worrying. I will always be ready and available when the time comes but for now I am walking forward with my head held high. I'm tired of trying and trying and getting nothing but rebuttals and excuses so it's best to take care of myself and know that I did my best. The times they are a changin'. I'm feeling a shift of some kind.  I am looking forward to new adventures. Life is good.

Mark and I had a lovely evening with our dear friends, the Summers this past Sunday (Super Bowl Sunday at that!). We got to enjoy a big bowl of spaghetti (Christy really makes a mean Bolognese sauce!), salad and all that yummy garlic bread. I wish I could have enjoyed it more.... I was having a weird stomach thing Sunday (and Monday too) so while the taste was fab, the intestines were unhappy most of the night. We have long admired both Mr. & Mrs. S. for their strong faith in God. They truly walk the walk and talk the talk when it comes to this subject. Yes, they're human and they make mistakes. But the big thing that they do is truly have a relationship with God - they talk to Him and they listen to Him. I know that I talk to God all the time. But do I actually listen to the answer? Not all the time. Both Christy and Mark have their own conversations with God and then discuss with each other their needs and concerns. They work as a team (as any married couple should) and f...